Age is just a number!

I should say "legal" age is just a number. The problem is that most of the jokes about the age difference in a couple's relationship are true most of the time. It makes me really mad when that's the case. It give credence to all the skeptics that have talked about my relationship behind our back. There are 22yrs between us and honestly in the beginning I didn't care one bit. But the more I'm reminded of that fact the more I think about the day that might come when he leaves this world before me. Something I could never deal with.
"If you live a hundred years I want to live a hundred years minus one day so I would never have to be without you" Winnie the Pooh

I am not a gold digger and trust me there is no gold to dig. Before him I never wanted to share my life with anyone or care so much for someone like I do now. He doesn't like my age at all. So no he isn't some perv and he never showed me off in the beginning or the present. If anything he wouldn't hold my hand or stand next to me in public for the longest time. Now we've found a medium on how to co-exist out in the world. But when we encounter friends that have entered into a similar situation we know the realty of things. Even so when the inevitable happens it worries us. I worry he'll leave me someday. I guess as much as the next person in love would worry. I think about it so often. Someone young who doesn't get sick who has the perfect body and is perfect in Christ as he would like. I don't think he worries the same thing about me. He doesn't worry. But he does control. It brings him order and he likes order. I don't mind at all as I enjoy order and routine. Brings me comfort......

Still age is just a number, right? Then why does every couple have to face it like it's a terrible thing. Why are there women out there that use older men and how do they sleep at night? Why are there older men that can't think beyond sex? People are complicated and thus annoying. I just want things to be simple but I know it never will be.