Goodbye to the late and great...

There times we had no one but each other. Forced friendship of common sorrows that linked our lives. Imprinted in our minds are shared memories both good and bad. Despite the harsh days, I know I'll forever miss my friend.

You told me things that can't be true. Talked for hours about the world just to feel heard. Your loneliness could never be cured. You suffered, but you gave up so long ago. Self appointed victim. But on days when the hell let you go you loved your son, and we were friend like so long ago.

I hate you for this sadness you gave me. I hate what you did to your son. I hate you for blaming me and I hate you for being gone.

My heart is fractured because I made you worse. I exist as toxic as a person can be.

Years of friendship, you OD'd on me.