Dating and Marriage. Why do people enjoy multiplying these things? I hate the idea of letting someone in and then it just ending and on comes another person. There are highs and lows but for some reason people expect things to always be a ten. Impossible. Divorce terrifies me. Breaking up terrifies me. I never want to start over. I never want to open up and share in all these things and learn all these things about someone I grow to love. Am I the exception in thinking this way? Do people enjoy going through partners?
I don't forgive people that have hurt me. I am a horrible Christian because forgiveness is demanded. Maybe I could lie and say I do? But I'd rather be honest to others and myself. I love some people that have hurt me but others I hate. Being burned is part of every relationship I've ever had with anyone. My friends, family.....it hurts more with the ones I thought I could trust. Trust is a beautiful illusion.
No one feels the way I do. I have no equal. No real partner that knows me or gets me or excepts me. Sometimes I'm lonely by that truth. Other times I wonder if this is just how it is for everyone. Just some people lie.
I wish I lived in a world where people fought for the happily ever after. I look at people who have divorced as failures. Quitters. People who don't take LOVE and COMMITMENT seriously. Yes that is wrong and everyone has a story. I do love people who have been divorced but I can't get past that.
A wife who leaves her husband because he didn't show her enough attention. Or the person who left their partner because "something better" came along. There is nothing more rewarding in life then being a wife and mother. NOTHING is worth jeopardizing that! My own mother thought nothing of parenting or being a wife. According to my faith she will get hers in the end. A lonely selfish life. There is no love stronger then between two people who have shared a long life blessed with children. Things can SUCK sometimes but it's all worth it. I am happy more then I am sad. If not for them I would not know what happy felt like.
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Yeah, Love and Commitment is the key that we all need more of in this world. Parents also have to be there for their kids, there are too many single parent raising kids nowadays.
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